On my way to the retreat, I was listening to a sermon that talked about Lucy asking that question. In that conversation, she's also told, "If there's anyone who can appear before Aslan without their knees knocking, they're either braver than most or just silly." We're in this love affair that we keep talking about...with the God of the gosh darn universe. That's terrifying. I think Jesus as our best friend is rightfully emphasized in youth groups. It's a very inviting picture that leads me to throw up my arms and dance around in worship. But some of my favorite moments have been on my knees, face to the ground, kind of terrified and totally in awe.
One of my favorite worship songs says, "Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine, since you laid down your life, the greatest sacrifice." We're in a HOLY romance where we both embrace and bow down. That's a really great love. And I think picturing yourself in front of the cross completely captures it. We can't understand, we can't really see it, we can barely stand it, it makes us celebrate, it breaks our hearts...our love dying for us. MY love dying for ME. It's a unique and devastatingly holy romance.
Jesus is crazy. And so good.