Final Countdown

Hello Sonshine Staff!  This is it baby!  A few more days to THE Memorial Day Retreat. Below are the run jog walk totals thus far.  Remember our goal is $500.00 from every staff.  We are still $17,000.00 short! Please keep talking to people and ask, ask, ask! Keep it up people!

$$$	Name
$         345.00	Aaron Cardinio
$         300.00	Allie Sherrod
$          50.00	Alyssa Barlow
$         750.00	Alyssa Holloway
$      1,329.00	Amanda Morris
$      1,450.00	Amanda Potts
	Amy Brown
$      1,069.00	Andy Clayton
$          20.00	Anne Towles
$         200.00	Anneliese Dion-Kindem
$         922.00	Brad Hogenson
$         550.00	Brianna Salvatore
$         495.00	Caity Dickson
$         100.00	Cassie Hanlin
$         315.00	Chris Brown
$         300.00	Cody Schulze
$      1,120.00	Connor Drake
$         340.00	Elizabeth Sherwood
$         537.00	Emily Ferree
$      1,050.00	Emily Williams
$         400.00	Emma Grager
$         474.00	Eric Wyne
$         225.00	Esabeau Kendell-Bell
$              -	Evan Smith
$         430.00	Frank Sprauge
$         205.00	Haley Ross
$              -	Hillary Rush
$         445.00	Hope Frankian
$          30.00	Jackie Kabel
$         315.00	Jackson Reimers
$              -	Jacob Temple
$         230.00	James Hansen
$         245.00	Jamie Sickler
$          75.00	Jenna Gailey
$         680.00	Jennifer Harnet
$         415.20	Jonathan Beltran
$         140.00	Jonathan Hale
$         155.00	Jordan Costa
$         500.00	Jordan Leonard
$         150.00	Joseph Lee
$         325.00	Josh Vance
$         200.00	Josiah Auer
$         660.00	Joy Brusenback
$          25.00	Kaitlyn Bonne
$         160.00	Karly Nelson
$         100.00	Kate Stipa
$         110.00	Katie Anema
$         110.00	Katie Jameson
$          10.00	Katie Lind
$         505.00	Katy Conlin
$          10.00	Kayla Neal
$         705.00	Kelly kurtenbach
$         185.00	Kevin Ganon
$         900.00	Kevin Straw
$         485.00	Kira Thornley
$         150.00	Kristen Anema
$              -	Kristen Brandsma
$          50.00	Lauren Green
$         390.00	Lauren Stack
$         150.00	Lauren Traurig
$         300.00	Lauren Whitney
$         285.00	Lexi Prior
$          20.00	Logan Daily
$          20.00	Mackenzie Hittle
$         590.00	Mallory Bockwoldt
$         400.00	Megan Obrien
$         780.00	Micaela Saqui
$         190.00	Michael Corsetto
$         316.00	Michael Obrien
$          10.00	Molly White
$         400.00	Nikki Smith
$         770.00	Nina Huckabay
$         830.00	Pearl Snow
$              -	Rebekah Bujanowski
$      2,010.00	Reid Delgado
$         595.00	Samantha Lotti
$          65.00	Sarah Cardona
$         440.00	Sarah Josephson
$         100.00	Sarah Thomas
$          10.00	Sean Pierce
$         235.00	Shane Anderson
$         332.00	Stefanie Woodruff
$              -	Stephanie Draeger
$      1,125.00	Stephanie Machello
$         533.00	Steph Fry
$      1,070.00	Steve Mann
$              -	Tony Dunn
$         165.00	Tyler Moore
$          10.00	Wendy Whitcombe

You Won't Relent

I find that I love to love God with my mind, but it's SO easy for me to fall into the trap of intellectualism and finding my self worth in knowledge about God. But Paul's words keep ringing in my mind: "I want to KNOW Christ and the power of His resurrection."

"The temptation occurs when the disciple desire for people to lust over the disciple's ideas about God instead of falling in love with God."

The bridge from the song "You Won't Relent" has been on constant repeat in my mind:

I don't wanna talk about You
Like You're not in the room.
I wanna look right at You,
I wanna sing right to You.

You won't relent until You have it all
My heart is Yours.

Slingshot

So I was listening to a sermon the other day and heard a really good analogy for something that i certainly struggle with at times.

so i've yet to find a christian that doesnt feel as if sometimes God is just letting them sit and not moving them. its like we feel as if we need to always be doing something big and special for God. I know I saw this with my old highschool group, we would get back from a retreat or something, and just be on a complete high for God. Then one by one we would begin to get discouraged by what seemed to be a stagnant period.

Now imagine with me a slingshot. You have to pull back it in order to get the power behind your shot. You cant really pull it back as fast as it will go forward either.

Now apply that to your walk with Christ. God is sending you flying in a slingshot, but you have to go through the times when he is prepping you to be fired. Everything we have been reading about is what we have to focus on as we are being "pulled back". I know I have trouble with that cause, to be honest, I like it when God lets me loose way more than just being diligent and patient.

I feel like this has been said like 60 times before, but we must just learn to Abide.

anyways, that was something cool I thought I would throw out there.

Reminded

Waassss up yo! So as i am going through my week it seems as though I am jus hitting little snags along the way. It is just petty minor stuff and i couldn't really figure out why these things were bugging me so much. I always go through this couple day phase when i get out of school because suddenly i don't have to think about school so my mind tends to wander and be my enemy. Then I was just thinking about how Jesus died for me and so on and so forth but then i realized something else. I often think about how amazing it is that Jesus died for me but then for some reason my thought process stops there. I realized how amazing the fact is that Christ is alive. When i thought about that, it changed my outlook. Suddenly I realized what Paul was talking about in 1st Corinthians 15 how without the resurrection of Christ Christianity is vanity. It changes everything when i was reminded that I was serving a living God. It also suddenly made me realize why the world should view Christianity as insanity. In every other religion in the world their prophets and gods are dead. In all their power and might they were not able to defeat death. So when people pray to other gods it falls on dead ears. When we pray to Christ he not only hears us but reacts to us by answering our prayers, even if the answer is no he still reacts by answering us. No wonder people struggle to believe this. Ultimately, when serving another god, you subconsciously know they are dead so you still are not ultimately having to surrender your life to that god. It is just AWESOME that we get to surrender ourselves to a living, breathing, just, and loving God. That gets me SO pumped for sure! That kind of God makes all my petty problems i was focusing on seem dead in comparison.

His Grace

So this past week has been a whirl-wind, and I am sure all of you who have gone through senior year/ are going through it right now know exactly how I feel. My body just caught up with it all and I got really sick last night... not going into detail... It caused me to take today off of school and sit in bed and reflect. I went over all the past devotionals and it is just sooo amazing to look back on my notes from training weekend and now realizing that this weekend is our retreat. One verse that has consistently jumped out to me, maybe because it is the only red in 2 Corinthians, but anywho... verse 12:9. It talks about how God's power is made perfect in our weakness.

I don't know about any of you, but I have so many weaknesses. Chocolate ice-cream, coffee, and warm cookies... but on a more serious note, I really struggle with a lot and I always feel so weak before God. Especially this morning as I write, my body is weak and tired, but God's perfect power has brought me sufficient grace in this day.

I DONT THINK WORDS DESCRIBE HOW EXCITED I AM TO SEE YOU ALL!!!

Wishing you all a restful and beautiful week with the knowledge that God's grace is sufficient and His power perfect in your weakness.

passion and meaning

Here is another one from a couple weeks ago.

passion and meaning.

1 Cor. 6:19

This hits me so deep. I am a walking example of this scripture. Whenever I am walking diligently with the lord and exuding his passion my life has such meaning. Everything I do oozes purpose, and I can fail at nothing, but when I turn from him and try to do it on my own I drown in my own feelings of uselessness. You would think that after doing this once I would learn my lesson and not repeat, but without fail I find my way back to my same old mistakes and I’m sure God is just shaking his head and laughing. If he were to say something to me it would probably sound a little like “alright, I’ll be here to clean up after you’ve done your best my bullheaded child..” I am given constant reminders of this throughout my days that usually only get realized in hindsight. Here is one of my favorite small-scale examples, in laymen’s terms, that was smacking me in the head as I read this.

When I play a piece on the piano it takes a life of its own when I have some emotional meaning or story that I can convey through it. If I don’t have that emotion driving the piece, without fail, it seems lifeless and dead. Something like a zombie, moving and existing but not alive. It makes it so much harder to learn a piece when I cannot convey my feelings through it. Without meaning it is impossible to push myself to work on it. When I can add that passion the piece comes alive and thrives.

Now this might be a stretch, but the connection is there, in my mind. My life with Christ is a song with emotion, and my life without, a zombie.

Wednesday hit like a ton of bricks.

Mental paralysis and inactivity stem from fear. You hesitate to form your decision because you fear making a mistake. Decisions always precipitate activity. If your decisions are paralyzed by fear, your activity diminishes... When you can remember that your life is otherwise lifeless without Christ, you enhance your ability to take on great risks with boldness and confidence... You begin to dwell in a new way on the threshold of the incredible call He has placed on your life, which is to love the LORD your God with all your heart, mind, and strength. (Yes, even when it means mistakes, and failure, and being misunderstood, and late nights, and long anchoring jobs, and endlessly pursuing junior high and high schoolers.)

The call Christ has placed on each of our lives is incredible! We talk about being "called" to people, places, professions, volunteer staff positions, etc. But Christ has called us to so much more than "just" being on staff with Sonshine this summer, or attending the college of our choice in the fall, or being a student, nurse, engineer, musician, fill in the blank... The ultimate call is to Jesus himself, to love Yahweh our God with every aspect of our beings! Yikes!

I really needed this reminder and encouragement on Wednesday, because that mental paralysis has been far too familiar to me in the past week. It's been a bummer to let Satan steal so much of my joy. But with each new morning, I have the chance to let my life for those 24 hours be not about my fear, mistakes, and discouragement... but rather to let it be about letting Christ and his death on the cross infuse my otherwise lifeless body with his life! Then and only then can I truly be bold, un-self-conscious and fearless in my pursuit of his call on my life: to love him with all of my heart, mind, and strength.

Struggles

Well, to start off, I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry for not posting in a while. My life has been consumed with getting things ready for graduation; it's a lot to take in. So I just wanted to apologize. (:

Things have been really crazy and I can feel the enemy trying to bring me down. With the summer coming up so fast, it's taking me by surprise how soon houseboating is going to be here. I know that the enemy is because every now and then I'll start asking myself, "do I really want to do this?" "It's going to be so hard, it's not worth it." This is not me what so ever, so I know the enemy is trying to get me to back out of this, which I won't. I wanted to share this because we're doing something wonderful for Christ and the enemy see's that. He wants to destroy God's ministry but I want us to keep on pushing harder. The enemy won't win this one. So if any of you are having these same thoughts, don't listen to them and seek God. You're not the only one in this.

God has a great plan for our lives and I know I'm excited to find out! (:

WWF Jesus Style

"I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me." (Galatians 2:20)

Until you drink His cup of judgment and mercy which simultaneously destroys and remakes you, you will be haunted in varying degrees by a lack of fulfillment and meaning.

It took me a minute to figure out the connection between the reading in Genesis and the blurb on Galatians 2:20. And then I realized that Genesis 32 is an instruction manual for bring about the reality of Galatians 2:20. How do we become a new creation? Allow Him to rename us and reshape us!

Jacob wrested with YHWH - no, it's even better than that. He wrestled with A MAN. He wrestled with Jesus! And Jesus renamed him during that experience, even because of that experience. I always have to be reminded that it's ok to wrestle with God. When Jacob asks to know His name, there is no reply, and yet, there is no doubt in his mind that He had encountered the living God - YHWH - face to face. When we encounter God, we are renamed.

Sometimes though, we resist the transformation - and I think that's ok. That's what make the experience so real and tangible for us. But because of that, sometimes He cripples us. Like Jacob, he touches our hip and dislocates it so that we stop striving and submit to Him. We're like a little kid fighting and protesting in our Father's arms as we get carried up the stairs to bed. We're not quite ready to stop playing yet, but as soon as we get tucked in and our heads hit the pillow, we calm right down, because we're so tired anyway! We realize it's what we've wanted and needed all along, and we submit. Even when He breaks us down, He's gentle.

The important thing is that when we leave, we are never the same. Jacob sought to know God personally and intimately through this experience: "Please tell me your name" (v29) - and because of that, he was blessed - even though He never got an answer. Sometimes we don't get direct answers for the questions that arise, but God always blesses us in the process. What's important is that we seek Him and submit to Him, and the rest is just details.

Surrender and be renamed!

"Cease striving and know that I am God." (Psalm 46:10)

We're Messed Up. Embrace it.

Today's message was refreshing. I love that in our weaknesses we are strong! It's encouraging to know that God reveals Himself the most when we're at our lowest points. It reminds me to be real and that I don't have to be perfect all the time or try to portray that. God loves me for me. Also, I REALLLY liked what Emily said. Guys, it's sooo hard to not naturally judge people. So many of these campers this summer, though, probably aren't the coolest people in school or necessarily the most outgoing. They're all going to be on the water for the same reason, though, all to get to know our Lord, which is so cool! We need to be unbiased and love on all of the campers as much as we possibly can. I'll need to shake that "judging a book by its cover" attitude out of me as well! We'll need to hold each other accountable. I'm so excited for Memorial Day weekend, guys ;)